prism

Why is that you want something more when you know you can’t have it? That urge to touch it, feel it, taste it, have a moment with it, have that wholesome feeling in your heart, that content feeling when u take a deep breath I crave more for it. Why is this programmed in our heads? It’s funny because lactose intolerant folks can’t physically have a slice of pizza. But yet, they take that risk. Is that risk worth it? When you know having that ounce of something forbidden will give you maximum happiness but that can destroy you. Break you, make you suffer. Well if you take the pizza, I would say yes, it’s worth the risk; but what about people. The risk or the damage left by someone would make you feel like a meteorite fell on your heart. It's something like, someone is crushing your heart like a foil paper that is later tossed in the garbage.  It’s paradoxical. It's like a forbidden fruit. We would be in a brown study, critically analyzing the pros and cons so that you don’t...

  What makes us overthink? I took myself as someone who never did any crucial thinking, who was constantly cheerful, joyful, and all kinds of happy happy words that there can be. It never mattered when someone got angry with me because I was just being me, being carefree. I giggle now thinking about how my classmate cried because I laughed when she got angry at me. Perhaps I was insensitive but really, the argument was unreasonable. At least that’s what we think, that people are unreasonable with their outbursts but it’s cool when you do it.   I learned that was solely because I was constantly occupied in some way or the other. There was no time to think about small matters. Being indulged in the pressing matters, or yet chilling with the things or people that meant the most to me somehow brought the sunshine in me. I sort of lived in my little fluffy cloud mind, some would say I lived under a rock because I was oblivious, under a rock with a ray of sunshine falling on a tin...